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Full Moon in Capricorn – July 2019

Just after writing about my “Journey into Mystery” I have had a potential opportunity arise in my life. I am not going to go into details, as it is only potential, and I have no idea of how it is likely to pan out, but it has raised the stakes. I had framed my journey as an interior, psychological, and spiritual journey. This opportunity may take my journey into changes that include the physical world, and some leaps of faith that I have not entertained recently in my life.

It feels good to be challenged to think outside of my normal, familiar life. It feels exciting, but also scary. It is so easy to assume that next week, next month, next year I will be living a life relatively similar to what I live now. But there are always things that can interfere with that assumption, and that future. One is I could make choices, and take actions now that alter my current trajectory.  There are also unexpected changes that the world could offer me – some lovely and enticing, and some more terrifying and difficult to accept. Several of my friends are going through this second kind of change – physical illnesses (either their own or loved ones), job changes (wanted or not), loss of loved ones, housing challenges, and even things as seemingly simple as ageing pets. All of these can take a toll on us as the shifts and rearrangements in our lives force us to shift and change as well. 

But, as the old joke reminds us, life is hard, but not as hard as the alternative. Transitions, transformations, redefinitions, all are a regular part of our life, or if they are not, we have to ask ourselves, are we truly living? Living is not standing in a doorway, it is a constant passing through various kinds of doorways, letting ourselves be uncomfortable, and even in pain (physical/emotional/spiritual) sometimes as we move further and further from where we started, and closer to our inevitable end. 

The journey itself is our destination, and how we engage in it is our choice. I am hopeful that the changes promised by my possibilities are rewarding and bring me growth and centering. But even if these specific possibilities do not happen, I know that I have called out to the universe that I am open to change, and I am trying to accept how the universe answers – both the easy and the hard.

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April 2019 Full Moon

Such wonderful promise outside my windows, and inside my heart as well. After several years of taking a break from teaching through Beltane Studio, I am re-opening the door and offering classes again. It has been a time of retreat after the closing of Evenstar Bookstore and Sacred Paths Center. I have continued reading tarot for my loyal clients, and playing with lots of ideas for what and how I might be interested in teaching going forward. The world is a different place than it was back in the late 1970s when I first began reading tarot and teaching. There were fewer books available, and of course no internet. And the topics that I was interested in exploring were considered “spooky” and something on the fringe of ordinary lives.

But this is decades later, many of us have come to be more comfortable with the multiplicity of energies and experiences open to us, and understand that there are more ways of knowing and interacting with the world than just our intellect and rational selves. Drawn to mysteries, to the mythic and archetypal layers of how we process our experiences, I have continued to study, and to play in these realms always following my own interests through new and ancient ideas. Now, I am most interested in pursuing not simply the answers, but the questions that lead into new territories and toward intersections of ideas and action. 

I am developing a schedule of classes again, tarot, creativity, writing, arts, and delving into our own lives to find the treasures hidden that could inform us of our path, purpose, and meaning. I am following my own whims – being of a “certain age” and knowing that I have things I want to do, and limited time to get to them – and I invite you to join me if any of these adventures call to you. I intend to break out materials, throw my studio door open, and hope for kindred souls and like minds to gather with me.